Sunday, December 26, 2010

Tattoo

I'm looking for a couple of tattoos. If anyone can recommend someone in Austin who can do this work, please drop me a line at rex@rexhalrey.com.

I'm looking for a biohazard symbol just above and resting on the base of my penis.
Modified from image found a http://www.tattoosymbol.com/symbols/biohazard-tattoo.html

I'm also looking for a serpent tattoo, preferably one with eyes wide open.
Image from http://www.tattoodesign.co.uk/snakes/


Image from http://www.cooltribaltattoo.com/snake-tribal-tattoo-designs



Friday, December 24, 2010

Orgasmic Yoga Sessions 39 through 43

12/19/2010 - Sunday - Session 39

Today's orgasmic yoga practice went longer than planned. Instead of trance dancing or erotic self massage, I mounted a fleshlight on a stand and used it to feel pleasure. I tried to consciously fuck the fleshlight.

The fleshlight is one of my favorite toys. Mounting it allowed me to rock my hips in a way that satisfied the sexual top in me. It left both of my hands free to touch other parts of my body and spread the erotic energy.

After my big draw, I wasn't satisfied. As I continued stimulating myself, I tried for some orgasmic implosions to produce some semen. I also used the aneros stimulator to practice my anal control I became more aroused and continued my erotic play for another hour or so. I pulled out a condom and put it over the head of my vibrator and inserted it in my anus. I jazzed on that for a long time.

When I was done with that, I stimulated some semen out of myself. I smelled it and tasted it. Then I went back to the fleshlight. I practiced for a while longer feeling the stimulation and avoiding ejaculation, slapping on my chest and spreading the energy. I knew I needed to stop or I would ejaculate, but I didn't know how to bring things to a close.

Eventually, I was able to tear myself away from the fleshlight and go into another big draw. I can see that allowing myself to breath and move more leading up to my big draw will help the energy go farther.


12/20/2010 - Monday - Session 40

For today's orgasmic yoga practice, I'm releasing the idea of alternating erotic trance dancing and erotic self massage. Now, I will appeal to that part of myself that knows what I need. I did, however, do erotic trance dancing.

I decided to wear my purple dress again. At one point, I put one foot on the dresser - which was difficult in heals. This accentuated my calf and exposed my genitals for play. This encouraged me to massage my penis through my dress as I danced. I'm also getting more practice at standing and dancing while wearing heals. Feeling my nipples through the fabric of my dress feels great. Then I took off my dress and kept dancing in my heals and touching my body.

The time for my big draw came and I laid back and built my breathing and movement. I left the heals on. I remembered to bring in my hip movement with my breathing. I was feeling erotic pleasure with my big draw.

I laid back and relaxed and caught my breath. I did the vibration I do to get some semen. It tasted good, but I wanted more. There's something special about this process - whether it's really orgasmic implosion or not. There's a sense of opening in the perineum as the muscles slowly contract and push out the semen. I tried it again. I felt the opening again, but no semen came out. I picked up my breathing and hip movement. I tried to feel the opening and contraction. I focused my attention and felt the contraction and focused on sustaining it.

There was so much pleasure - like a long and continuous ejaculation without ejaculating. I felt like I was cumming, but I didn't. I get to this point by pressing above my penis and below the bone above it. When the sensation begins, I now feel around the root of my penis - pressing in and around. It kept that pre-ejaculation feeling going and feels fucking fantastic.


12/21/2010 - Tuesday - Session 41

I chose to do erotic self massage today. After my heart pleasuring, I sat down on the chaise and faced South. I laid back, oiled myself up, put on my blindfold and began the massage. It seemed easier to focus on the sensation while wearing my blindfold and I became erect quickly.

I did conscious breathing and I moved my hips and rubbed my oiled penis and my oiled chest and nipples. I like touching the area between my penis and thighs - where things come together - each side joining at the perineum. Several times, I was able to quickly rub my penis and stimulate the pre-orgasmic tingling, before my body had a chance to ejaculate.

I was very wild by the time the big draw came. I felt myself begin to ejaculate as I stimulated myself during the big draw. I clenched as tight as I could and pounded my chest. I didn't stop the ejaculation, but it didn't seem to be as intense as I clenched. After resting a bit, it seemed that my arousal had not been depleted. I could go again, and I nearly did. This was very productive. Keep practicing these kegels!!


12/22/2010 - Wednesday - Session 42

After my heart pleasuring kegels, I started with trance dancing. My intention was being consciously aware of God's presence in my life.

I decided to use the aneros while I danced. It takes concentration for me to hold it in by constricting my sphincter. Sometimes I was bent over. When I stood up, I need to push it back in from time to time. I stood upright and held my legs together to hold it in. I touched my nipples and sides. I rubbed oil on my penis. That made my anal muscles contract. I enjoyed the tingling. I got on my knees with my ass in the air. Now I could touch my body without worrying about the aneros slipping out. I touched my lower back and tail bone. I rubbed my nipples and sides. Again, I focused on the sensations as I experience more pleasure than normally possible.

I did my big draw.

After resting, I decided to have a little semen. I rubbed that spot that I like. I felt my perineum open. This time, something unexpected happened. I touched my perineum and a spurt of semen came out. Suddenly a small jet landed in my hand. How cool! It smelled and tasted great. I enjoyed savoring it. I'll explore that reflex more in the future.


12/23/2010 - Thursday - Session 43

I forgot to set an intention for today's orgasmic yoga. I left it open ended and unplanned. I spent the first five minutes with heart pleasuring kegels. Then I did some movement and touching. I moved to my knees and bent over. After a few minutes, I mounted the fleshlight. It was very stimulating, so I was breathing deeply. I realized I wasn't touching the rest of my body, so I began slapping my chest, sides and ass. Then I was able to do more movement with the fleshlight without ejaculating.

I was moving and breathing when it came time for the big draw. I laid back on the floor and built up my breathing and movement. I was rocking onto my back and forward, almost so that I could stand up, all while stimulating my penis. I took my three, noise making breaths as I clenched for the big draw.

When I couldn't clench anymore, I laid back and relaxes. I did a fairly good job of avoiding extraneous thought during the session. I thought about tonight's 3 circle ritual

I tried to duplicate yesterday by trying to produce some semen and make one spurt of it. I wasn't paying attention and ejaculated. I'm not judging, just learning.


Session 43.5

I had an excellent experience at the three circle ritual. I tried to focus on my own experience to start. I tried to avoid focusing on an erection. At first, it felt like I was being drained of erotic energy. I couldn't get it to flow.

I continued to do soft cock massage. I eventually stepped into the inner circle when I felt aroused enough. I began working with another man. In a couple of minutes, something happened. I looked around and saw all of these naked men. Many of them were erect, giving themselves pleasure, or sharing pleasure with other men. I can't explain. It's like I saw them for the first time, like I was suddenly present. I felt an opening, a simple erotic joy. It felt like waking up and realizing the dream was real. It was so hot!

I was able to ride that new awareness for the rest of the time. Anytime the energy felt it was dropping, I thought about being surrounded by hard naked men. I shared my energy and gave and received and mirrored it. I would call it an awareness. I was aware of the nakedness and erotic power and purity. I want more of that.

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Saturday, December 18, 2010

Orgasmic Yoga Practice

I have begun the Yoga of Sex course from the The New School of Erotic Touch. My first assignment was to observe a daily spiritual practice of orgasmic yoga for thirty days. I've been instructed to journal my experiences. Being the exhibitionist I am, I decided to post my journal entries on my adult blog. What is Orgasmic Yoga?

Here's the temple where I practice:

Here's the master index of those experiences:
Session 1 through 13
Session 14: Furniture Jumping
Session 15: Self Love
Session 16: Heart Pleasure
Session 17: Hot Energy
Session 18: Healing Energy
Session 19: Fucking Myself
Session 20: Semen without Ejaculation
Sessions 21 and 22: Healing and Spraying
Sessions 23, 24 and 25
Session 26: Healing the world
Sessions 27 through 32
Sessions 33 through 38
Sessions 39 through 43

Future sessions will appear here:
June 10, 3013: Creative Erotic Energy
March 2, 2012: Two Paths of Pleasure and Masculine Erotic Energy
February 18, 2012: Two Hours of Orgasmic Pleasure
February 15, 2012: Pre-Orgasm Orgasmic Yoga
January 2, 2012: I'm only doing this because I love you
September 13, 2011: Ejaculation
September 7, 2011: Orgasmic Relaxation
August 30, 2011: "Personal" Lubrication
January 8, 2011: Freedom and Presence


If you would like to join me as a participant or an observer: My Orgasmic Yoga Practice

Orgasmic Yoga Sessions 33 through 38

12/13/2010 - Monday - Session 33

I had a great orgasmic yoga session today. Not very emotional, but very pleasurable. My intention today was healing. I did erotic self massage.

After my heart pleasuring kegels, I laid back on the chaise and began massaging myself with oil. After becoming aroused, I inserted an aneros stimulator in my anus and continued massaging. If you're not familiar, the aneros stimulator is a small plastic device designed to rest against the prostate. It's shape allows it to be moved through anal muscle contractions. Ideally, these contractions can be caused by the stimulation spontaneously, which in turn causes more contractions and stimulation.

Anyway, using this device provided feedback on my level of stimulation. I could more easily feel contractions that warned of a build up to ejaculation. This allowed me to provide stimulation to my penis and not provide so much as to ejaculation When I felt close, I switched to another lighter stimulation and continued. I felt the flush of orgasm again, but I still want more.

I was so pleased with this, that I continued past the limit of my yoga session. I found it to be worth it.

In future sessions, I want to involve my heart and emotions more. I want a greater sensation of love and peace. I want to focus my love on healing the world - beginning with myself.


12/14/2010 - Tuesday - Session 34

Today, I did erotic trance dancing. My intention was to be more aware of my emotions.

I danced and did my breathing. I inserted an aneros stimulator in my anus and gripped it. It was difficult. I'm not sure if it was because my muscles were relaxed, or because my contractions were pushing it out. I enjoyed it.

I'm still having difficulty clearing my midn. It's natural, but I keep thinking and having trouble staying present. I think it will involve more practice.

After my big draw, I thought about my intention. I began saying to msyelf “I surrender” as a mantra. I tried to be aware of my feelings. It came to me, “I dont' know what I'm doing.” Maybe that doesn't sound good, but I loved it. How freeing. There is a truth to it, even though I know many things and have strong skills. At any given moment, I am practicing new behaviors and doing things I've never done before. I've never made a living as a sacred intimate before. I'm laying on the floor in the temple, looking at the walls. I'm on a new path. I don't know what I'm doing. It's OK for me to make mistakes as I move forward. I will find my way.


12/15/2010 - Wednesday - Session 35

I did erotic self massage and my intention was surrender.

The first part of learning to release thoughts is to become aware when they are taking you out of the present moment. I was able to do that today. I used my aneros again. It's an excellent tool for releasing pleasure from the anus and rectum. I felt somewhat orgasmic several times and enjoyed manipulating the stimulation through muscle control.

I felt myself getting tense in my neck and shoulders several times. Then I would try to surrender and relax into the moment.

Eventually I pulled out the vibrator. With the aneros stimulator still in my anus, I vibrated the bone above my penis, and my heart. I was moaning and groaning with pleasure. I noticed I wasn't breathing freely and that I was tense. When I did, I tried to relax and accept the pleasure.

Several times, I felt my penis tingling as it does before ejaculation. I tried to continue the stimulation to keep the tingling going without ejaculating. I was having a wonderful time, but I was tense again and not breathing freely. It's wonderful to abandon yourself to the sensations, but my intention has been to be more conscious and aware. In this way, I can experience continuous sensation (tingling) for a longer time. That, I think, can lead to ejaculation-less orgasms - where I feel flushed and ecstatic.

I put the vibrator between my legs and clenched at it. I was feeling fantastic tingling pre-orgasm feelings. At some point, I began ejaculating - but it was worth it. There were contractions within contractions and the aneros was tickling my anal sphincter.

As I relaxed, I felt happy and fulfilled. It was during this time that I recognized how thinking and forgetting to be conscious (leading to muscle contractions) took me out of the meditative state of awareness. This is my practice for now.


12/16/2010 - Thursday - Session 36

I did erotic trance dancing. My intention was surrender.

I didn't focus as much on getting an erection today. I focused on the sensation of my touch. I kept one hand near my penis and ran my other hand over my body - focusing on pleasure.

The nice thing is that as I was building up to my big draw, I surrendered... to myself. It's another of those “hard to explain” things. I was giving myself pleasure and surrendering to it. I particularly liked the feel of my inner thighs. I smiled as I surrendered to my self-love.

I rewarded myself with a little orgasmic implosion semen.


12/17/2010 - Friday - Session 37

I did erotic self massage today. My intention was to surrender.

I surrendered to my touch. I surrendered to the sensations. I used the aneros again. It really helps me focus on what my kegel muscles are doing. I was able to experience some extremely sustained erotic pleasure.

I also recognized that I do know what I'm doing. I know how to love myself with pleasure. I know how touching more than just my genitals gives me joy. I know how breathing and conscious touch can provide me ecstatic pleasure. All of this when I surrender to my inner wisdom; when I trust that the deeper part of my knows what I need.

I unintentionally ejaculated after my big draw while I was trying to push out some semen. It's always amazing now because I almost always have multiple orgasms during my ejaculation. Very surprising.


12/18/2010 - Saturday - Session 38

I did erotic trance dancing today. Again, my intention was surrender.

I'm more able to arouse the sexual energy when I trust that there's a part of me that knows what it's doing. It seems obvious that I should know what feels good and pleasurable. But that doesn't come through when I'm busy trying to figure out how to get the energy to flow. I have to get myself to stop trying and just listen for the still small voice within that just knows what works.

If you were paying attention, yes, I did just say God was within me. This infinite diving knowledge makes hir: (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Gender-neutral_pronoun) home within us and is available when we slow down and listen. But that's just my opinion.

At one point, I recognized that the body I was pleasuring was God's body. How very sacred to give pleasure to the body of God, the physical manifestation of God. How powerful to be permitted and directed to give pleasure to this body.

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The Temple

My partner and I finished building the temple where I will practice my skills as a sacred intimate and healer. The G-rated pictures are on my general blog: blog.rexharley.com.

Because my Sacred Intimate Treasure Map includes some graphic images, I decided to post it here.

I've also created a short video walk through of the temple.

Please email me your suggestions for improvement. rex@rexharley.com

I have a daily orgasmic yoga practice that lasts between 40 to 60 minutes. If you would like to join me as a participant or an observer, please drop me an email. I live in north central Austin. We can choose a time that is convenient for both of us. rex@rexharley.com

Sunday, December 12, 2010

Orgasmic Yoga Sessions 27 through 32

12/07/2010 - Tuesday - Session 27

I did erotic self massage for my orgasmic yoga today. My intention was to experience myself as love.

Most of the time, I was sitting and watching myself in the mirror. I enjoyed taking myself close to ejaculation and sending that healing pleasure out to the world.

When it was time for the big draw, I fist stood up and kept bringing myself to the edge as I pushed that energy out. I was able to push out some semen - I think it's called orgasmic implosion when that happens. Then I went into the big draw.

After resting, I fiddled with myself and unintentionally ejaculated. I didn't think I would since I was trying to be careful, but I wasn't as conscious as I was relaxing. At some point, I will learn to stop once I am satisfied.


12/08/2010 - Wednesday - Session 28

I did erotic trance dancing for my orgasmic yoga today. My intention was “I Am centered in the eternal present moment.”

I used an ace bandage as a cock ring. I found it very arousing to direct the erotic energy out into the world. I don't think I've experienced quiet that feeling before. Usually when people say “Fuck the world,” they mean it disparagingly - but if fucking is an act of love, then it gets very hot.

I tried to ramp up the sensation with some light pain by using first clothespins and then nipple clamps. When I began using the nipple clamps, I put on the blindfold to fully experience the sensations without any distractions.

At one point, I lost the erotic feeling, but not the erection. I think that means that I can slow down sometimes and stop trying to force the flow. My purpose with this practice is to learn how to get the erotic energy flowing of its own accord without my trying to force it.

I used pain during my big draw. I pulled on the nipple clamps during my last three big breaths. I took the clamps off as I began to clench. I'm not sure how it affected my experience when I relaxed. After releasing, I pulled a pillow over my face. I then experienced an emotion I can't put my finger on yet. It wasn't physical, but I felt something that made me want to groan with pleasure and release. Maybe it was an emotional orgasm.


12/09/2010 - Thursday - Session 29

Today, I did erotic self massage and my intention was to be more consciously aware of God's presence since life has been difficult to manage lately.

I was able to focus on experiencing the pleasure in my penis and avoid ejaculation. There's that electric feeling you get in your dick as you get closer to cumming. It's pure pleasure. Small movements can make for strong sensations. By focusing on my breathing consciously, I was able to keep stimulating those sensations without ejaculating. Breathing and consciously relaxing the perineum, I took more pleasure than would normally be possible.

I was highly energized going into my big draw. I didn't have any big revelations. I just tried to relax and let my mind be clear.

After resting, I pressed in and vibrated on the area just above my penis and below the bone that's there. That let me push out some delicious and sacred semen. I stopped after that. Yay!

Session 29.5

I did my first communal orgasmic yoga practice tonight. It was a 3 circle ritual. I was with a small group of men. I would like to make this a regular part of my spiritual practice.

I have been very skilled at raising my energy in my solo practice, but the erotic energy felt impeded in the group. It was more difficult for me to allow the energy to flow. I think the other men were distracting me. When I go back, I will stay in the awakening circle longer. I only want to enter the fire circle when my erotic energy is flowing strongly and is sustainable.


12/10/2010 - Friday - Session 30

This morning's orgasmic yoga was erotic trance dancing. My intention was healing.
To begin, I again worked with heart pleasuring kegels and pelvic rocking. I tried to continue with the kegels as I danced. Lately I've been having difficulty experiencing without thinking. I keep palling back into believing that an erection leads the arousal, rather than the other way around. I keep thinking I need to get that erection so that I can feel the pleasure that feeds my arousal. Or that I need to think the right erotically charged fantasy thought. But the erotic energy comes from a deeper place. Any thoughts - even one's that you think would force the energy to rise - can impede the flow.

Today was my thirtieth session, but I intend to continue using this tool for my spiritual growth. To celebrate this milestone, after my big draw, I folded my penis behind my thighs and used a vibrator that I was squeezing between my thighs to stimulate myself to ejaculation. Since I was aroused and I haven't ejaculated in a while, I didn't take very long to shoot. I tried hard to last as long as I could with conscious breathing and conscious relaxation - but it was still over very quickly. It was nice to have an intentional ejaculation to mark this milestone.


12/11/2010 - Saturday - Session 31

Today I did erotic self massage. My intention was the affirmation “I Am Love.”

I had some difficulty getting my juices flowing today. My breathing was good, but I reached a point where I didn't feel aroused. I didn't put a time limit on today's session. I was hoping to spend the whole time on edge, feeling the waves of pleasure. Avoiding expectation is probably a good idea for orgasmic yoga.

Once I gave up and surrendered, I started feeling more aroused. I was able to take myself closer to the edge and feel that tingling sensation that comes before orgasm. I was able to avoid ejaculating today.


12/12/2010 - Sunday - Session 32

Today, I did erotic trance dancing. My intention was an affirmation from church, “I surrender to God to be an instrument of love and healing.” This affirmation seemed hand crafted for me.

I wore my purple dress with my purple heals. I opened myself to allow my divine feminine to dance and touch. It was fun play. I let my cock and balls hang outside of the pantyhose to rub against the soft fabric of the dress. I pulled the dress off and rocked my hips to rub my penis against the pillows. I left the heals on almost the whole time.

When time came for my big draw, everything came off as I laid on the massage table. I focused my energy on an upcoming rendezvous with my partner. I would like to lay him on this massage table and let him be God for a while, as I use my body temple to love him.

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Monday, December 6, 2010

Orgasmic Yoga Session 26 - Healing the world

I did erotic trance dancing for my orgasmic yoga practice today. This is my first practice since last Sunday. I've added 13 sessions to my planned 30 sessions for a total of 43 sessions by the time I'm done. I fully expect to continue these yoga sessions in the future as a regular part of my spiritual practice.

My intention today was listening for my conscious contact with God. I didn't have any trouble getting the erotic energy to flow while doing heart pleasuring/kegels. I wore the ace bandage cock ring again and the bells on my ankles.

I directed my focus North, South, East and West as I danced. I felt the energy in the form of my dancing erection. After I laid down for my big draw, I got my energy going with some erotic self massage. At one point, I was very consciously aware of healing the world literally with this energy flowing out of me. It made me really hot and erotically excited. I would love to do that all the time.

I played with myself for a while after I cooled off. I was able to push out a taste of semen. I did that by stimulating myself without actually touching my penis - but by vibrating my pelvic bone just above my penis.

I liked it.

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