Wednesday, October 30, 2013

Time and Utopia: Journal Entries

This is a journal entry from Sunday 10/6/13

Seek first the Kingdom == Look for evidence of utopia, or recognize the good in people, places, and things that support the faith in the goodness of God.



This is a journal entry from Tuesday 10/8/13

I enjoy my morning coffee outdoors, but it will soon be – and already is – too chilly for that. It takes about a half hour to sit and relax. I need time each morning to know that I am OK. I don't know if that looks like meditation, orgasmic  yoga, or something else.

I think I should wake up and have my coffee and then go to the gym. I'll see my partner at the gym when he arrives. I have been waiting for my partner to leave before doing anything. That means waiting until 8 AM.

I see how my  schedule can work. As before, I can alternate orgasmic yoga and working out at the gym. If I get up early enough, I can be ready to go to work at 8 or 9. I can have plenty of time and not feel rushed.

I am going to the gym now.



This is a journal entry from Wednesday 10/16/13

I can see now part of the problem. I often try to think about what things I want to include in my days on a regular basis – like orgasmic yoga, exercise, time to journal... I haven't focused on the quality. Then everything turns into scheduling chores.

I'm tired of feeling tired. I would like to feel more awake. I want to feel that my life has meaning and purpose. I want to be aware of the presence of God/Spirit/Consciousness/Love. I want beauty.



This is a journal entry from Friday 10/18/13

How is it that all of our time saving devices are leading us to feel more rushed? I can see from my past times when I eliminated some things from my life and I still didn't gain the time I expected. Why do I feel I don't have time for this or that? Whenever we find free time, we fill it. We use TV, social media, and anything else we can find to keep busy. The companies we work for are in competition, so keeping you artificially busy is intended to help the  bottom line. It works of course, but the price can be heavy.

When I am rushed, I feel overwhelmed and I become less productive. I'm interested in finding out how to be more aware of the spaciousness of time. I'm interested in creating a life that is a work of art, not an efficient machine. I choose how I use my time. Time is open ended. If I focus on flowing with life, I will have time for what's important to me and the rest will drop away.
How will I serve today?