Monday, November 29, 2010

Orgasmic Yoga Sessions 23, 24 and 25

11/26/2010 - Friday - Session 23

I did self erotic massage for my orgasmic yoga this morning. After my heart pleasuring kegel warm up, I used the fleshlight. It was fun, but I decided to switch to laying on my back and self pleasuring. I ran out of time after I had barely begun my erotic massage. All of the following happened after I decided to continue feeling pleasure.

I've found recently that I can take more pleasure by relaxing and breathing consciously. I was able to go further with that then I have in the past. It's hard to explain, but at one point, the sensation reminded me of the beginning of the first ejaculation contraction. The pleasure was amazing. I imagined the energy going up my spine, over my head and down my front. If I used any different strokes, I would ejaculate. Even when I got close and wanted to stop, I would use some tiny motion to stimulate myself just a hair more.

At one point. I got in touch with the love that I was experiencing with myself. The physical pleasure was stimulating a sense of love in my heart. It made me happy and I smiled.

My big draw seemed like an anti-climax compared to the love. I pushed out some semen as the big draw began. I pushed myself a little too far and stimulated my penis a little more and ejaculated. But it felt like there were mini ejaculations in the backdrop of the larger one. I came two more times while I was cumming.


11/27/2010 - Saturday - Session 24

Today, I did forty five minutes of meditation before my orgasmic yoga. My intention was to find a missing cat. I did erotic trance dancing. I wrapped a bandanna around my cock and balls as a cock-ring for a while. I danced with my sarong wrapped around my waist so I could rub my cock against the fabric as I danced. Eventually I put on my purple dress for a while - with my penis hidden behind my thighs. I viewed myself with a simulated vagina. When the dress came off, I put the sarong back on, held in place by nipple clamps. I danced and held that erotic energy until my big draw.

I did the big draw twice since I was distracted during the first and did not clench. The second, I brought myself to the ejaculation before clenching. Afterward, I rested my nose near my armpit. I didn't cool down too much and stimulated myself some more before bringing things to a close.

Doing this work, I've remembered climbing the rope in gym class before I ever learned how to masturbate. I would get these amazing sensations of heat that made me feel flushed as I pulled my crotch up along the rope. I think these were orgasms. The sensations I've been experiencing lately are of the same quality. Now, I'd like to learn to experience these sensations again.

11/28/2010 - Sunday - Session 25

Orgasmic yoga today was erotic self massage. My intention was thanksgiving since the missing cat returned. I used rose scented oil again.

There's not much to report. I'm getting better at accepting more pleasure by focusing on the sensation and not going on autopilot. After the big draw, I lingered longer than I planned and accidentally ejaculated.

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Thursday, November 25, 2010

Orgasmic Yoga Sessions 21 and 22: Healing and Spraying

11/24/2010 - Wednesday - Session 21

Today's orgasmic yoga was very tingly. My intention was to be aware that “I Am centered in the creative flow of good.” Today, I used self erotic massage. It didn't take long to become aroused. I started into the pleasure that I like using the juicer and fire strokes. I kept my conscious breathing and surrendered to stronger sensations of pleasure. I relaxed my perineum to go further. I began tingling all over. This is the sensation that I associate with healing energy. I spread that over my chest and belly.

My legs were in the air. I was using rose scented massage oil for the first time today. With my arms and legs in the air, it felt like my body was the petals of a rose and my erect penis was the stamen. I find that delightful.

I spread the energy over my ass and thighs while my legs were in the air. Then I began directing it out through my hands. I found that I could keep stimulating myself without climaxing as long as I could let that flow of energy go out faster than it was coming in. For a while, I directed it out in general, but then I began focusing on my partner. I imagined having sex with him and pumping him full of this sexual/spiritual/healing energy. First I focused on his whole body, then I focused on his head and ears.

I was really tingling and full of energy when the timer went off, so it was easy to carry into my big draw. Once again, I as able to push out some semen without a full ejaculation. This time, I had to pound on my thighs with my fists to avoid a full ejaculation. Again, very fantastic and delicious.


11/25/2010 - Thursday - Session 22

Today I did erotic trance dancing for my orgasmic yoga. I like having erections while I dance, but it's not required. This time, in addition to my ankle bells and nipple clamps, I wore my sarong like a cape around my neck. I worked up an erection and began imagining spraying the walls with healing erotic energy from my erect penis. My temple is nearly complete. I consider it sacred ground and always remove my clothes before entering for ritual.

I had become quite aroused by the time of my big draw. I've been working on controlling the muscles of my pelvic floor - both contracting and bearing down. Bearing down is how I imagine pushing the erotic energy out of my body into the world. It's also a way to postpone ejaculation. Once again, I was able to emit some semen without a full ejaculation. Part of the reason this may be possible is that I haven't ejaculated in a long time.

After resting, I stared massaging my penis again. I spent thirty minutes or so just enjoying the pleasure and appreciating the feel of my penis in my hands. I love being a man.

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Tuesday, November 23, 2010

Orgasmic Yoga Session 20: Semen without Ejaculation

I skipped my orgasmic yoga session yesterday. I didn't feel that I had the time or the energy to have any satisfaction in it. But today's was probably the best erotic trance dance version of orgasmic yoga yet. I bought wrist bracelets with bells. I used the bracelets as anklets. I used an ace bandage as a cock ring. I started feeling aroused right away. As I continued dancing, I used the nipple clamps and put clothespins on my anus and at the base of my balls. The stimulation fed my arousal.

When I knew time for the big draw was getting closer, I sat down in front of the mirror and did some cock massage. I started spreading that energy around and feeling lots of pleasure. I kept stimulating myself going into my big draw. I felt one gentle spasm as if I might start to ejaculate as I clenched and held. After being still for a few minutes, I sat up and discovered I had pushed out some semen. It wasn't much, but it was delicious and I savored every drop. Is this orgasmic implosion?

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Sunday, November 21, 2010

Orgasmic Yoga Session 19: Fucking Myself

Today's orgasmic yoga was erotic self massage. After doing heart pleasuring and pelvic rocking, I laid down with my legs folded up and my cock and balls behind my thighs. It got really intense since I was able to stimulate my penis at the same time as my perineum and anus. I was spreading the energy from my cock to my ass and sometimes rocking as if I was fucking myself. It was very sweet and hot.

At some point, I rolled back on to my back, but continued to stroke from my anus, over my testicles, up my penis and back to my heart. I focused on approaching the ejaculation and backing off when I felt my body tingling. I felt my face turn red and felt the tingling all over. It was a gentle orgasm without the ejaculation.

I tried to carry this into my big draw. My mind was noisy after my big draw. I kept thinking I could enhance the sensation by doing something - kegels, focusing on my perineum, something... I didn't really cool off. After a few minutes I started rubbing myself again, feeling the tingles. I would love to do this all day.

I sat up and stroked my hands up my still hard cock, spreading the energy around my chest. I tell myself “I love you.” I say “Thank you, God.”

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Saturday, November 20, 2010

Orgasmic Yoga Session 18: Healing Energy

Today was my first orgasmic yoga session since Sunday. I hurt myself last Saturday and have been having trouble with pain since then. This was my first time back. I did erotic trance dancing. I wore a cock ring from the start and added clothespins to my nipples. When I was bouncing on the chaise, I felt what I call the erotic energy rising from my crotch. It's that arousal I used to feel more often in my twenties. It's a kind of erotic heat and arousal. I want to foster experiencing that more often. I think it's the erotic energy that can be used for healing.

At any rate, I switched and moved the clothespins to my dick and put on the nipple clamps and put on my blindfold. I then totally focused on the physical sensations in my body. I could focus on movement and the movement generated sensations that fed my arousal. I kept moving the clothespins around my dick, taint, tail bone and anus. When it came time for my big draw, my whole body was bringing me pleasure. I rubbed my forehead with the bottom of my feet and gave them a kiss. I looked at my hairy legs and thighs and drank in the image. I was very happy. I laid one hand on my belly just above my cock and used the other hand to vibrate my heart. I felt pure pleasure coming from those heart vibrations.

After the big draw, I enjoyed doing some kegels to make my cock bounce. I enjoyed the pleasure in my body and slowly relaxed.

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Sunday, November 14, 2010

Orgasmic Yoga Session 17: Hot Energy

Today's orgasmic yoga (Sunday November 14) was erotic self massage. It felt really good. At one point, it felt as if my hands got really hot and I could feel the heat as I rubbed my chest and belly. It felt like hot water. I was taking a lot more pleasure without ejaculating than normal. I was trying to spread that energy of almost ejaculating.

My fingers were tingling after my big draw, but my mind started judging and feeling as if I was missing something. I guess I want to have more of that joyful energy when I'm done.

I played with myself for a few more minutes after my five minute rest. I laid on my side with my legs pulled up and my cock and balls on the other side - on the same side as my anus. I liked rubbing my penis on the underside of my thighs. I think I'll try that again. It was playfully enjoyable.

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Saturday, November 13, 2010

Orgasmic Yoga Session 16: Heart Pleasure

Today's orgasmic yoga was erotic trance dancing. My intention was for today to be a healing day. I asked God to fill me with his love, to let it pour over me. I had an erection most of the time without trying too hard. I asked for God's light to shine through me into the world. I used nipple clamps to enhance the sensation as I danced. I tries to sense the erotic energy within me, but it's harder for me to sense that when dancing.

I felt pleasure in my heart after my big draw. I love that feeling.

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Friday, November 12, 2010

Orgasmic Yoga Session 15: Self Love

I did self erotic massage for today's orgasmic yoga. As I began dancing on the edge of ejaculation, I focused my awareness on my body and it's experience with the pleasure. I was bucking around on the floor and having contractions in my perineum. Then I recalled my recent experiences.

I focused my attention on going into the pleasure, to accept it and to accept more of it. I was able to stimulate myself more and avoid the desire to ejaculate. My whole belly was contracted as I was accepting the pleasure and avoiding the ejaculation response. Conscious breathing helped here immensely.

In my cooling off period after my big draw, I was looking at myself in the mirror. I told myself that I loved myself by all the names I've used. I smiled and I saw that I have a beautiful smile. That's my affirmation for today: I have a beautiful smile

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Thursday, November 11, 2010

Orgasmic Yoga Session 14: Furniture Jumping

I ejaculated for release last night, so today's orgasmic session... it was harder to get the erotic energy flowing. Today I was erotic trance dancing. I was using an ace bandage as a cock ring so once I was erect, I was very erect.

Today, I had fun jumping on and off the furniture. Once I was hard, I could feel the erotic energy in my belly.

My intention today was letting God be in charge of my schedule and living my life on God time

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Wednesday, November 10, 2010

I have begun the Yoga of Sex course from the The New School of Erotic Touch. My first assignment was to observe a daily spiritual practice of orgasmic yoga for thirty days. I've been instructed to journal my experiences. Being the exhibitionist I am, I decided to post my journal entries on my adult blog.

10/29/2010 - Friday - Session 1
My very first orgasmic yoga session was good, but it's hard not to judge. It didn't last long enough. I didn't start coming close to orgasm until the time was up. I went past the end time because I wasn't satisfied. I'm glad I have thirty days to practice this. I want this to be a regular part of my spiritual practice.

10/30/2010 - Saturday - Session 2
My second orgasmic yoga was excellent. I got aroused enough to make plenty of groans and other guttural noises. Unfortunately,I forgot to set the timer. It was good not to run out of time.
I was affirming the presence of God. I was making love to God and he was making love to me. I spoke to God in me through the mirror.
I also talked to (my childhood nickname). That's who I was before I went to school. I love (nickname). Regardless if it's true, the name (nickname) is perceived to be backwards - like a country bumpkin. It wasn't so much my father I was running from, but who I thought that name said I was. Maybe kissing that boy in the first grade is the real reason I hated that name. Now, I love (nickname). Physically and literally.

10/31/2010 - Sunday - Session 3
Today's sex yoga was very intense now that I'm clear on the desire to have sex with God. I have trouble bringing things to a close. There didn't seem to be an end point until I accidentally ejaculated. I really worked up a sweat and was in ecstasy keeping myself on the edge of ejaculation. I think today I forgot to go into a big draw when ejaculation was eminent. I'm also more focused on directing my energy into my heart.

11/1/2010 - Monday - Session 4
I didn't journal about my orgasm ic yoga this morning because I was running late. I had an amazing time. Near the end, I visualized fucking my heart. I could feel my cock penetrate my heart and pump it full of erotic energy. It was so sweet and delicious. I imagined squirting cum all over the inside of my heart, and then rubbing around inside the folds of my heart. I could actually feel it. I get hard thinking about it.

11/2/2010 - Tuesday - Session 5
Today's sex yoga was very nice. I've noticed the sensation that you have just before you cum, that deep contraction in the perineum. Today, I think I was at the verge a couple of times. The first time, I slapped my anus and perineum to interrupt the pattern. The second time I did a big draw. I had very sweet orgasmic feelings as a result. I want to always remember that I can interrupt that ejaculation so that I can focus on the orgasm. Usually, you believe that it's going to happen so you don't try to stop it. Now, I've experienced great pleasure, but I still am not depleted.

11/3/10 - Wednesday - Session 6
Today I my orgasmic yoga, my thoughts got in the way. I was too focused on getting hard and edging for my tastes. After my big draw, I wasn't satisfied so I stroked my dick some more. That was better. I like having a man's body to play with.
Tomorrow I may skip the trance dancing and go straight to self erotic massage. And the day after, do the opposite. Maybe my intention should be to release thought.

11/4/2010 - Thursday - Session 7
Today's orgasmic yoga was delicious. I was able to push out some sperm without fully ejaculating. I stayed on edge a long time and kept spreading the energy toward my hear. I used the cum to anoint my anus, heart and forehead. Near the end, I was still very close to ejaculating when I started looking into my eyes in the mirror. I was able to say “I love you” and I both meant it and felt it. Then I laid back for my final big draw. I unintentionally ejaculated as I was going into the ig draw. I couldn't stop the ejaculation, but I think I can with practice.
When I sat back up, I continued looking at myself in the mirror. I felt detached and objective as I appreciated the beauty of my body. I felt detached in that it feels like there's nothing I couldn't do. I feel like I know my strength.

11/5/2010 - Friday - Session 8
Today's yoga was mostly trance dancing. I was able to feel some erotic energy toward the latter half of the session. I have more difficulty raising erotic energy this way than when I do self erotic massage, but I can see the value and think practicing will help me better raise it in day to day life. I also had a great post big draw experience. I had been using nipple clamps. I took them off just after the big draw. I felt pleasure rising from my taint (perineum) all through my chest. It felt very very sweet. This was much m ore than I was expecting from trance dancing alone.

11/6/2010 - Saturday - Session 9
Today's orgasmic yoga was insightful. The 4T class has been emphasizing not just saying affirmations, but getting into the feeling nature of their Truth. Today, I physically experienced some affirmations: I Am a clear channel for the flow of God within. God's love flows through me into the world I Am the light of the world.
Unfortunately, I had forgot my intention of seeking God in everyone, everything and every situation. But once I did, I began affirming that and looking for that. My fingers and body were tingling and I visualized the healing erotic energy going out from me and healing my partner and his sister. Thank You, God,, for healing my partner and his sister of what concerns them.
In the future, when I imaging God fucking me full of his healing love, I want to imagine it flowing into my ass and out through my cock and hands - raising the consciousness of the world.
Smelling my armpits enhanced the feeling of raw erotic powr and influenced the flow. Very wonderful.

11/7/2010 - Sunday - Session 10
Today's orgasmic yoga session, I was slightly less full of distracting thoughts. Today was erotic trance dancing. I'm having trouble sensing the erotic energy in my torso - even when I have an erection. One of my goals as a sacred intimate is to be able to raise that erotic energy on demand. My big draw was nice deep sensations of pleasure - emotional pleasure.

11/8/2010 - Monday - Session 11
Today's orgasmic yoga was very deeply pleasurable, but I didn't gain any new insights. I've gotten used to having profound moments, that gentle energy - erotic energy - for it's own sake seems ordinary. I want to be able to transmute that physical pleasure into an emotional experience.
I'm behind on my sleep which may decrease my ability to experience pleasure.

11/9/2010 - Tuesday - Session 12
I enjoyed my morning's orgasmic yoga. My intention for this morning had to do with feeling a lack of time. I was feeling overwhelmed. I decided to focus on that and feel it deeply. This session had some remarkable characteristics. I started smiling, I'll explain later.
I laid on my back with a pillow between my legs and pillows laying on my body - my face covered by the sarong. That's when I felt how nice the pillows felt as my dick rubbed between them. I covered myself in my sarong and started doing kegels.
I began rubbing my dick between the chaise and a velvety pillow. I was watching myself in the mirror. I saw myself feeling pleasure and that made me happy and I started smiling. I was full of joy. I was smiling a big toothy grin and letting my tongue hang out. It was just so cool to see myself that it made my sense of joy grow because I realized I was giving myself pleasure and I am worth it.
I ran late because I had a hard time bringing everything to a close because I was feeling so much pleasure. I'm trying to master orgasmic implosions - where you have the contractions that ejaculate semen without having a fully releasing ejaculation. I've done it before on several occasions and it's great to have semen available without deleting all the erotic energy. In trying to achieve this again, I was edging - taking myself close to the edge of ejaculation. I was able to stay right on that edge for a while. It made my penis hard like iron. It was so amazing. I think I ejaculated instead of imploding, but I'm not sure. After I caught my breath, it felt like my penis was as sensitive as ever and I could cum again very easily if I chose. I resisted. This didn't match my earlier experiences, but trying to recreate them is very fun.

11/10/2010 - Wednesday - Session 13
Today's orgasmic yoga, I learned that ejaculation is like gagging in that you can suppress the gag reflex by paying close attention to it and willing yourself to relax the muscles involved and control it. It takes practice, but you can learn over time to postpone or avoid ejaculation.
Today was strictly self-erotic massage. I was able to go past the point where I would normally ejaculate by stimulating myself as lightly (once I was close) as possible and willing myself to relax the muscles in the perineum that wanted to ejaculate.
Unfortunately, even though I knew I had gone past the point of no return without ejaculating - I began masturbating normally again and ejaculated. It takes constant attention to avoid going over the brink. That, I think, is what makes this a meditative practice.

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